Abstract, Thoughts


Tendrils of smoke wisp through the air, searching for something to grab ahold of. Like the claws of the devil clawing at your soul they seem to cling to every object they come in contact with. Pulling, dissolving everything into more tendrils reaching even further still. Clutching at your feet the smoke begins to work, you are no longer rooted to the earth. You begin to float on the smoke, almost euphorically, you feel your body dissolve into nothing and now you are the smoke, searching for your next victim. Clinging to your very existence you begin to become one with the smoke around you. Like a fog, you move forward destroying everything in your path until nothing is left. You no longer know who you are. You no longer exist. You are nothing. Nothing but a tendril whisking through the air for something to cling to and make your own. Searching for an identity but removing every identity you touch until you realize, you cannot be anything but what you are; nothing. 

~ BlondeHeadedHunk ~

Life, Personal Note, Thoughts

My Life, My Choice

One can’t always place what it is that keeps them awake and their mind busy. It’s like your mind is running wild while not disclosing what keeps it busy. Some trouble deep within stirs and keeps you tossing and turning wondering what’s wrong. Eventually you may come up with some “problem” that doesn’t exist but gives you solace that you understand yourself, only to learn that the “issue” isn’t even relevant. Thank you, brain, we all are greatful for your ability to over think life and keep us awake. Yet the troubles still swarm in my mind and keep my eyes from shutting. 

Aside from that, I find myself debating the next step in life. There are always options, but none ever pop out to you and say “pick me!” Despite weighing pros and cons and considering for hours and hours which would be best I am still at a loss for what to choose next. Maybe the answer is plane and the only thing holding me back is others opinions. 

Where is the balance between taking someone’s wisdom and following that and following what you think would be the best option? I’m sure some would say “follow your heart” while others would argue that the wisdom of others is invaluable. I am sure there is a balance between the two but it is lost on me. One choice leaves the opinions of others less than approving while the other choice is a general consensus of the correct choice. I know that in the end I am the one that must live with the choice though, and that’s where I am left to sit and ponder.

May the decisions come easy and the choices be rewarding. 

~ BlondHeadedHunk ~

Advice, Life, Thoughts

Slower Today Than Yesterday

Personally I tend to rush through my day to day. Tomorrow is better than today, rush to the evening, rush to this that or the other. It’s a constant run forwards instead of enjoying the moment I am in. 

Enjoy the moments you have now, slow down and see the small things. Enjoy the simple things that make life better each day. The wind across your face, the view out your window, a conversation with someone you care about. Slow down. Let it sink in. You’ll miss it when it’s not there. 


Life, People, Thoughts

Let the Night Change You

Seize the day is commonly said in graduation speeches and when someone seems to need motivation. The thing about seizing the days is even if you seize the day the night will come to haunt you with what happened during your day. 

It is my opinion that the night is far more important than many would like to credit it to. Most likely the night is when most of us have made our biggest mistakes and perhaps our biggest triumphs as well.

What comes to your mind when you think of the night? Hours lying awake thinking of your past, maybe finding a party so you can drink the thoughts away and pass out till the light comes back. Maybe you think of sleep and how amazing it will feel as soon as your climb in bed. Maybe you have that special someone you look forward to snuggling up against and talking about your day to till yo drift off to sleep. But for me the night is when I can think, it’s when I can straighten out what’s going on in my head. The important things shine through the darkness as the light fades. The world becomes quiet and still in some places while others come alive. You can be reclusive and no one thinks twice because it’s night time and that’s what people do.

Maybe it’s an excuse to be an introvert but I like being away from the busy and in my own world. The night can also be the time that change happens. Once all the daily distractions are gone you can focus on the big decisions. As much as we all hate it, the night let’s us think things through or get real and talk them through with someone else. 

I suppose all I’m saying is the night is when change can happen if you let the night change you.

I’m sitting in an airport looking out the window into the darkness so if none of this makes sense blame it on the stressful day I had missing a flight eh? I’m off to Cali to have a go at western life, wish me luck! I will try to get back into blogging when I get there, in the meantime, as always, yours truly.

~ BlondeHeadedHunk ~